Thanks again for the support.
Okay, since I am trying to turn over a new leaf, I read all your posts here in this thread with a more open mind and here are my responses.
AC, I AM defensive and throw too many hissy fits if someone disagrees with me. I DO take dissent to heart a little too much. I will try to remedy this in the future. Jason1 accused me of acting like a diva. :D I guess that's true. If you catch me doing this in the future, will you PM me and tell me to quit being a bitch? I do tend to go off the deep end at times. I don't know if I can catch myself doing it and stop in time...it's just my personality.
kooky, you've been a good friend. I would like to PM you when I get some time and talk with you about some things. I'm still thinking about some stuff and about what to say. About Supra deleting threads and stuff...well, Supra and I were friends before that. As defensive as I am, tho, I would never DELETE threads or do anything underhanded like that. I will constrain myself strictly to diva behavior and hissy fits. :D
shithead, I can't call you out because you're right about everything. I guess I am insecure about my weight and no one else cares. Shrug. Oh well. I can't help being overly sensitive about it and you can't help not caring! :D About the homo tendencies...well, my sexuality is kind of weird. Can you be both a little bit gay and completely straight at the same time? If you knew my entire past, you might understand me a little better and not think I'm such an oddball. That's what I am. It's weird. I have always tried to understand my sexuality and have had alot of frustration doing so because alot of men just can't talk openly about it, whether they feel the same as me or not. I'm not trying to "get" anyone or push my views on anyone. I am only trying to understand myself better. Am I straight? Yes,
but...and the but has always driven me crazy! I don't like it honestly and maybe think I can get rid of it completely if I understood it completely. The main point is, I suspect there are men like me and I would like to discuss this thing with them, but there is that wall of silence and I keep rapping my head against it. I'm glad you wont have your kids circed if you have boys, and I thank you for your post. It was good. We may never see eye to eye, but that's okay!
I have to confess, too, that some of the "gay" posts I made in the past were pranks that Supra and I conspired on together. I apologize. I think it has bothered a few people from the posts I have read in the last couple days and I do feel bad about it. Supra was kind of a bad influence on me when I first started posting here on
MOS. We actually created the 4skin forum together, then we had a falling out over the thread deletion thing, but that's ancient history in forum time.
ctmwm, what can I say? I was basically a forum virgin when I joined
MOS. I still can't figure out instant messaging! :D I will try to remember that internet forums are not that important in the grand scheme of the universe.