Yes, moving on is what I started to do and what I am doing now! She showed some interest for attention last night on the party, but I did not even look at her. It hurt a little- wanting to be with someone and still ignore him, but FUCK that BITCH!
LIGHTNING- To your questions I will now answer.
1- When we chatted she told me that MANY people know her in a different way- when she is drunk, when she is in a good mood, when she is in a bad mood etc. But she told me that I am the only one that actually saw the REAL her, the way she is, not pretending, not hiding. I fell in love with this person. I realized what you said 4 days ago now.... that if this is not the girl I love then why would I still have feelings. Well it is maybe because I know that down there lies the real girl- the one that I loved is somewhere down there and I know that this is the REAL one, not the fake one.
2- (answer to everyone!!!)- When we chatted it all came as nothing more than sex talk. Right in the start I told her "Women are all the same- they like to be treated bad and treated like shit, I do not understand that, but I guess that is the way you women are...". Her answer... well it was "Yes, I know that some women like this, but I am not like that. I have had a boyfriend- my 1st boyfriend was the rudest person to me. I gave him everything and he treated me like the biggest shit- laughing at me, spitting me, hitting me, making fun of me in front of everyone just to make me feel worse and worse..... I dont like bad guys, I like nice guys, I dont think that it is cool to be a bad guy. For a serious relationship- I would ALWAYS choose a nice guy- even if he is UGLY, AWFUL in sex, poor instead of someone who might be a star, but treat me bad". She has talked me about her last boyfriend who she truly LOVED (and from her stories- it was LOVE really). She said he was not the hottest, richest not anything, but he was as nice as a man could be and he gave her all his care- that is why she fell in such deep love with him. I am no different than him I see that, but it looks like she is just in a phase of her life where she just wants a break from feelings, cause after he left her, she was hearbroken and she can not allow herself feelings anymore. I know that my way- the nice way- is the right way to her heart, but I know that the door is closed and no matter how much I try to walk that way, the door would still be closed.
This is why, boys. I have read EVERY comment of yours and I feel ALL your support. I am now following your advice. It is hard to see that someone who you want to be with SO much wants your attention and you still ignore it (last night
), but it seems it is either me who is going to get hurt or her who is gonna feel pissed off at me for doing this. She is not the bad guy of the story- it is just that feelings came on the wrong place at the wrong time and we cant control that. I am following your advices boys!!! I will keep my friendship with her, but will no longer give her the care and support she needs. I will not IGNORE her, but I will ignore her needs. Thanks... BROTHERS!!!