I even feel badly about the boob stuff but I gotta do what I gotta do. The frustration and anger is the greater evil, believe me. Ever since I have taken over
MOS I have had so much stress that I run back to "the old ways" and deal with things with masturbation. What I need to do is look to Jesus for more discipline. But as I have stated, there is only so much I can take . If I say I never will masturbate I am making a law and laws do not work, ask the Jews! So I allow myself to do this as I see it as better than being angry and frustrated. Iould go with my imagination but that can be much worse than the books I am looking at. It is a tough thing but I do not get down on myself too much. I see my going weeks at a time as a huge improvement over the man I used to be, watching the most offensive �naked people movies� all day, what a terrible place to be. So I am not perfect by far, I sin just like everyone here, the objective is never perfection it is improvement.