worfking said:
MIKEY
I want to apoligize in a huge way! you let me in your house , and in return i talked mad shit about you . Well actually pokey did , I dont know what to say other than i was wrong and i did not come over to try to bring you down
I can honestly say after the meeting with you , all the things you said to me have stuck with me
ILL never forget when you started throwing stuff out of your closet
your right "NEVER HIDE ANYTHING all my pe shit is in the open NOW my mom has accepted it ill donate some money when i get some room on my cards
-johnny kritikos
J, I loved your visit and my anticipation did not do justice to the actual presence of your arrival. You were such a wonderful man and our time spent together still makes me smile. I understand that in person I am difficult to understand, try living in my mind for a day it is borderline insanity. I struggle with myself every minute of every day and my need to understand life on such a finite level only adds to my eccentricity. It has cost me many friendships and it has brought me much loneliness. It seems my brain views things on a level that is awkward and difficult for people to grasp, I see this every time I look in the mirror. I wish I could figure myself out, my need to understand, my constant search for answers to questions most think not worthy of pursuit but I can't. I spend everyday, all day reading, studying, researching and hoping for a universal solution that will help me understand myself. ALPHA-BLADE, my most dear and valuable aspiration in life suffers due to my inability to understand exactly what I am trying to prove. You were the first person to ever sit and talk with me about what it was and my confusion at the time was stifling. Your presence made me happy and made me feel almost normal, human. It did sadden me to see you go about life without any recognition of our time together but I also understood that it was more than likely my inability to relate to someone on a level that initiated a friendship. I really hoped that we could be friends but when it did not happen I understood your position. It has been this way my whole life. I have always been consumed with things other people just don't care about and I know this pushes many away. I wish I could relate to people on a more "normal" level but it has never been a possibility for me, it just feels awkward and fake.
I feel so much guilt about ALPHA-BLADE. I see �other PE site� ridiculing me and it is hard to feel as though I don't deserve it. It has been hard for me to be honest with even my members here about why I have not released it. I wish I were able to just release it but the biggest thing holding me back is my own mind. ALPHA-BLADE is so much more than I let on, so much more personal than anyone realizes, it is me trying to understand life. I had hopes of a universal guide to life for men to use and prosper with but I just could not get the math to become perfect enough for it to be viable. I spend everyday, all day writing and rewriting the expression that would make it all make sense but I am never able to feel content, there is always a nagging dissatisfaction that hinders my ability to make it public. You were really the only person that I trusted to peek at what I wanted to express but when you went off and discounted our time together it made me go back and rethink it all.
Penis Enlargement is such a beautiful expression of the power of what the human mind is really capable of. This suBathmateergence into such a delicate, meta-physical area rekindled my life long dream to understand what being a male truly meant. History has stifled us from becoming truly what we can. I look at the world and see how much we are made to suffer because of our sexuality and it makes me cry, the sadness is too much to even describe. I see us all dealing with pain that is unwarranted, undeserving and it breaks my heart that being a man has become such a negative thing. We live in a society where we are held back by our on lack of confidence and this deficiency is not of our fault, it is a prejudice deep rooted in the society we live in. This constant nagging that plagues me is the very essence of my desire to create ALPHA-BLADE. Penis Enlargement was easy, it was always easy, it is basic science but the implications of this reality was and is immense, more so than many would think. It opened a gate way into the male psyche that allowed us to not only make our penis bigger but expand our understanding of who we are and flourish in the realization.
Thundersplace and any other advisories will always view me in a way that makes them feel more secure with themselves, these things never bothered me nor stopped me from my work. The relationships forged out of a community we built together, the collective unity, a belief that we are much more than a penis we are a deserving and powerful brotherhood is invaluable.
MOS is much more than a penis enlargement site, it has something that no other place will ever have, much less understand, it is an intoxicating medium for male advancement on every level. Everyone that comes here takes something away that has much more value than the sexuality they wish to enhance, they walk away with insight into exactly who they are as a man, who they can become and what they are worthy of.
pepepe said:
I raised my confidence to levels never seen b4 by me through pe. this place makes a guy feel welcome and wanted unlike other places. i've learned techniques to last me a lifetime and i plan on using them for that long. dld you have aided to masses of people through this forum with your knowledge. i can't ever thank you enough, ever. you were put on earth for this.
This is us, it was never me. Our intricate unity is the very reason each of us gains this confidence we so dearly need.
SmallPenis06 said:
DLD (random question)..Do u think any famous people do Penis Enlargement or lurk through this forum?...Besides �naked person�.
I am never sure. I have always found greatness in the regular person, the famous lose their need for greatness. Fame is something for those who do not understand what we have. I do think our uniqueness attracts the masses and within this audience there is more than likely very well known people but their anonymity usually stays in secret. I do feel at times that the world is watching but it never seems to conflict with our purpose. I can imagine President Bush learning how to clamp or Dave Chapelle getting his A-Stretch on:D
