Just saw this thread and had to comment.
"Disgrace to yourself?" Disgrace, as a man, would be just suBathmateissively accepting whatever life tosses you when you want more, and know you can get more.
There's this weird paradox, at least as I see it, where so much importance is placed, culturally, on the penis and how big it is, while at the same time the whole issue is regarded as a source of humor and, beneath that, something "disgraceful." For example, in movies and books its not uncommon for totally unlikable characters to have small dicks (even by rumor or implication) as a way of undermining or laughing at them, while heroes and likeable characters who are underdogs in every other respect invariably have big ones when the subject comes up.
As men, we're expected to be "tough," which in practical terms means just having a big dick because that's what "real men" have. If we don't, then we deserve to be the butt of people's jokes, and if we don't like that and get caught trying to do something about, it's like trying to change your "caste," as if you're some fundamentally inferior person who's just pretending (and most likely falling for some "internet scam.")
But in my view, there are two kinds of men: those that just accept this sense of inferiority that society tries to push on us as "the way things are," and those that say "Fuck you, I'm a man and my life is what I make it." I think most if not all of our brothers here are the second kind; I know I am and it sounds like you are, too. So be FUCKING PROUD of what you're doing, because real men aren't born, they're made.
And that was true even before we knew about Penis Enlargement